signal given, signal recovered, signal received but not relieved…
don’t mind me… I’m just sending misspelled & broken messages to you…
But…
here I am (yet again)…

wearing my thoughts (yet again)…

I don’t know what else to do…

this proves that no matter how hard I try (or tried) “it” will never be enough…

Ever.

I hate that you hate me…

I hate that… to you… I am the worst…

this keeps me awake at night.


(drive home from Baltimore - April 2014)

"…I wrote you a letter… I heard it just upset you… Why don’t you tell me?… How can I do this better?… Are you out there?… Do you hear me?…"

"I Want a Disaster" during Rotting Out’s set at For The Children - Dec. 2012 // 📷 by @alvincarrillo

"I Want a Disaster" during Rotting Out’s set at For The Children - Dec. 2012 // 📷 by @alvincarrillo

Anonymous asked:

How was your week?

this week, It’s been busy thus far…Although, I do enjoy being busy… There are times when I wish I could stay home and do absolutely nothing… I stayed in Upland last night… not sleeping in my bed will always be foreign to me… I’m on my way to see my dad at his nursing home, I’m gunna give him a haircut (ha he asked “can ya fade me up?”)… And afterwards, I’m a get Bakers.

How’s your week?

August 1997


I was 18yrs old… I went to Europe for two weeks… I was home sick… I had massive jet lag… I watched Daft Punk on cable access… I tore down a Suede show poster near a bus stop…  I cried when I was inside the Sistine Chapel… I spent some time in and around Paris… I watched Viva Las Vegas with french overdubs on Elvis’ birthday in a hotel room by myself… i went to London for a few nights… Italy 3 days (I think)… Switzerland was my favorite… I wish I took more photos… I always regret never taking enough photos.